Epitaph of Heart

10.19.05

There is a fork in the road and there are but two ways

But the ante is for keeps which contorts it more to a maze.

I am not sure if the best choice is to endure and push through

Or take a deep breath, cut my losses and start anew.

When an emotionless stone meets an unsuspecting rock, there is still a spark.

Even though I should follow my heart, my hope cannot see in the dark.

But even though I would never show it on my face,

Can you not feel the emptiness in a full embrace?

Our thoughts cannot connect and the backlash sends me reeling

With that type of reaction, how can you not sense what I am feeling?

We can swear we will fix it and things will get better soon

But we have already heard that band marching to that over played tune.

During an uphill struggle, it is impossible to gain,

So why do we continue this emotional strain?

Sometimes you have to give in and succumb to the undertow

And accept the momentum of the redirecting flow.

I have become unwillingly numb and cannot sense what you need,

Rendering me helpless to make this togetherness succeed.

I cannot make excuses because we have done this before

And trying to make this work, my heart simply cannot take anymore.

I feel remorse for the wasted time of what could become of other things

But the quicker this is ended, the faster we will see what tomorrow brings.

For this reason I must euthanize our future and put it to sleep

And I must let you go, my love, but this time it must be for keeps.