Out-of-Heart Experience

Have you ever stood in the presence of something greater than yourself?
Has love ever dug under your skin, projecting an image of someone else?
Perhaps you played a card that would be trumped, no matter what was dealt.
Then you know what it's like to feel feelings that can never again be felt.

It is humbling to witness that experience.
You begin but start stumbling with the rest
As your stomach starts grumbling with detest
Now mumbling stupid, much less than you would have guessed.

That is what you've done to me. No, I never stood a chance.

My chance with you I thought awfully, greeting feelings with dismiss
That judgement was costly, retreating to a doubtful abyss.
Subtle you were at first so calmly, fleeting with bliss
Then I touched your face so softly, preceding our first kiss.

My heart still races today as I reflect on how we were
The symmetry went unspoken, and I'm sure you'd concur
The memory of summers we had together eclipsed in a beautiful blur
But you took the interest on my heart and decided to defer
Then the strength of what we felt began to transfer
Looking back I still try to understand what actually did occur.

Fool me once shame on you but for the second time I have to own
Twice bitten by the same snake and I still cannot condone
The trespass you committed and the true side of you that was shone.
"If only we were in the right place" is the epitaph of our gravestone.
We could have both avoided all of this hurt, if only we would have known.
That you never actually loved me, your heart needing to roam.
In the face of that emotional adversity, you decided to go it alone.

I will dust myself off in the wake of what you inadvertently slew
And begin to excavate the damage my hurt has accrued
I will pick up the pieces, find myself and then debut
A greater me as if achieving some kind of breakthrough
But I haven't. I am stuck in the past, still pining for you.
Moving on is still just a wish that I hope someday comes true.